Chapter 3.

„I heard music and came to see...“ said Mrs. Maimu Männik but what she saw made her fall silent. The sight was very displeasing. The two young people quickly raised up as they had got an electric shock. Their clothes were scattered all around the corner sofa, two condoms full of sperm were lying on the sofa table in the same position as they were chucked. She had to compose oneself while Joonas and Diana were hastingly enclothing themselves.

„This is very impudent! I haven’t seen in 45 years that students desecrate the schoolhouse like that!“

They spruced up their last clothes on them.

„We are very sorry, Mrs. Männik.“ Joonas tried to apologize.

„This time your apology is not enough. What were you thinking? I have to call the headmaster.“

„Please don’t do that! Maybe we can settle this in other way?“

„Shut up, Diana! This is already a bribery!“

As she couldn’t look in their eyes full of shame anymore, she took an outdated Ericsson mobile phone, that younger people were naming a brick, from her handbag and put on glasses with fat glass. She chose the number and pushed the „call“ button.

„Mr. headmaster. I have to announce that we just had a problem in the teachers’s room. Our students, Diana Kunnas and Joonas Väli were using the room for a fornication!“.

She listened what the headmaster had to say while mumbling.

„I’ll keep an eye on them until you are here.“

She finished her call, put the phone back to her handbag and said to the young people:

„Mr. Headmaster will be here any moment. Until that, please take an A4 paper sheets and a pen. You are going to write an explaing letter as I am dictating.“

For compensating their miscarriage and earning an easier punishment, they took the paper sheets and pens and sat down on the sofa. Joonas throw away the used condoms he had wrap in a napkins, sat back on the sofa and were ready to write.

„I, Joonas Väli, the student of the 10th grade, broke the internal rules of the Gymnasium of Karlova and used the teachers’s room as a brothel. We were cotton up to Mrs. Maimu Männik, the history teacher and caused her a moral shock.“

Diana and Joonas finished their letters by witing the date, their names and and signatures in the end. Maimu took the short letters. She placed the letters on the archive shelves of documents. She crossed hands behind her back and walked back and forth in front of the couple. She was shaking her head as she still couldn’t believe that something like this had happened. She stopped, looked at them with a keen eye of an eagle and asked as a commander:

„What were you thinking? That was the last thing I would had expected from you.“

„We were bored and we thought to do something exciting.“ anwsered Diana.

„And Joonas, you didn’t had a common sense to stop her?“

„I couldn’t say no. In front of her I was abulic.“

Diana casted a surprised glance at him. It was the most strange compliment she had got in awhile. His voice sounded candid as his heart.

„Well, that boy is golden! It’s sad that I used to mock him all the time.“ Diana was thinking. She was half-smiling surreptitiously, but Maimu’s eagle’s eye noticed it instantly.

„Is there something funny, Ms. Kunnas?“

„No, Mrs. Männik.“

Maimu casted a glance at clock on the wall, it was half past two in the afternoon.

„Do you even know what clause of the internal rules did you broke?“

„Yes, I do know.“ anwsered Joonas and because of shame, he didn’t dare to look at Mrs. Männik. The door of the teacher’s room opened and an overweight, bald middle aged man, the headmister Mr. Volmer Õunap, stepped in. He stopped beside Mrs Männik, glanced an angry look at Joonas and gave an order as a commander:

„You two are coming into my office!“

When they stepped into the roomy, ventilated room, Maimu gave two explaining letters to the headmaster. He told them to sit and sat on the comfortable arm-chair. First he read Diana’s explaining letter and then Joonas’s.

„What I’m going to do with you, Diana? This was your second internal rules breaking in one month. Do you want me to call your parents into the school to announce them about a serious punisment?“

„No, I don’t want.“ said Diana as accommodativing.

„Joonas, it was your second rules breaking in one day. What is happened to you?“

„I don’t know what I was thinking.“

„Please, continue.“

„It was my mistake that I agreed to make this foolish adventure. I regret.“

Mr. Õunap looked at Diana and Joonas and made his decision.

„This time you get only directives and lower rates this year. Is it clear?“

„Clear, Mr. Õunap.“ They said at one time.

„Now take a hike! I don’t want to see even your shadows!“

Joonas and Diana standed up, thanked for the easier punishment and said goodbye.

Diana was a hotblooded girl who could turn other’s and even herself’s relationships into a hell upon earth if necessary. She was the selfish girl who could care only about herself and her needs. The first two days had been fun and calm, but Joonas knew that she could ruin their relationship too. What Joonas saw in Diana? Why did he agreed to be in a relationship with her, although he knew it couldn’t be happy? Was Joonas in love with her? Hardly possible, because he didn’t had more sincere feeling than love. True, it was all about passion. Joonas didn’t care that the girl was a real hottie. But the other hand, this relationship was defending him from Siim who didn’t threaten him anymore far from violence. Still he knew that danger is not over. Sooner or later he should make the fatal mistake and everything could go wrong. This day was already impending.

2 April. It was Diana’s birthday. The one who had birthday was in a hurry so that she didn’t had time even for eating whole grain cereal with milk. For school clothing she had chose a low-necked blue tight-fitting tank top with „Sexy“ T-shirt template and a light blue tight jeans. For this day she had afforded more make-up and a french perfume with sweet aroma. This had to be her day, she had to be the number one among the popular pupils in school. Usually she went to the school with a city bus, but this day she was waiting for a friend. If Porsche 912 did drive up in front of her house and blow the horn few times, she scented herself more, put on a black jacket, put white sneakers on her feet, grabed at school bag and run outside. Kermo was standing beside car cowling, received her greetings with exaggerated flirting. Diana sat beside the driver and they started driving to school.

A very hot spring day was about to begin, that’s why many students were spending time in front of the schoolhouse, at the forecourt. All the benches and stairs of the front door were full of students. You could hear everywhere pupils’s amused shouts and laughing. Every stranger, who passed by the school, could think that an outdoor ceremony was beginning. Also Joonas and his three metalhead friends were sitting on a bench in front of the school. He had took an interest in a few English metal music magazines that he was browsing. Also in number of this month had a a free metal CD with collection of 20 songs.

A posh sporty car drived to the parking lot in front of the schoolhouse. A chatter stopped everywhere and everybody took a glance at the fancy car and lap up who they had bring to the school this time. Joonas was listening to one of the magazine’s CD with CD-player and read a new article about death/doom metal band Ghost Voyage and their world-wide concert tour. This article was so interesting that Joonas didn’t notice anything what was going around. Heli, a girl with modest gothic metal style, dig him in the ribs and if she noticed his asking look, pointed the finger at the parking lot. As Joonas noticed his girlfriend, he took off the small headphones, gave the magazine and CD-player to his friend, raised up and stepped at Diana to greet her. Diana stepped at her boyfriend, gave gaudy and attention catching smile. Their embrace and kiss was numb and emotionless. After that, she wanted him to leave her alone. Joonas suprisingly watched her leaving. Something was very wrong. „Did Diana turned back into the despising and harassing girl?“, was Joonas asking himself. He had knew always, that one day it all turn back the way it used to be, but he didn’t think it could happen so soon.

In the third break, Diana and her friends gathered together into the small auditorium. They had Mr. Õunap’s special permission, but they had a requirement that they wouldn’t break any internal rule. Diana was standing in the middle of her friends. Many hands run to her to congratulating, that she received one by one. She was opening her presents while drinking a red cherry sangria. Most of the things were clothes by latest fassion, make up and jewellery. If Joonas looked into the room for a moment, to see what is going on there, he noticed her frisky look.

„Joonas, come here to us! You are waited.“

Diana run to her boyfriend and kissed him more passionately and embraced him warmer than in the morning. She took his hand and bring him to the table of presents and sangria. Diana took an empty glass from another table, filled it with the red drink and gave it to her boyfriend. If Joonas was drinking the first sip, she asked:

„Darling, what are you giving me as a gift for my birthday? It must be something big, because your hands are empty.“

Joonas put the sangria glass on the table, looked at her and said:

„It’s not a big gift.“ he put his hand into breast pocket of his jacket and took a postage envelope, gave it to his girlfriend and said quietly:

„I couldn’t chose you a gift, that’s why I’m giving money. You can buy something you like.“

Diana was surprised, she took the envelope, opened it and saw 900 EEKs by 100 banknotes.

„You are a pathetic asshole, that you couldn’t buy me anything! I don’t want your money! I’m not a slut!“

„I’m sorry, I really couldn’t choose you anything.“ Joonas was apologizing.

„Beat it! I can’t stand you, asshole!“

Joonas bended down and took the envelope from the ground. Siim used the chance to put through his retribution. He catched at Joonas’s scruff and beat three times his chin with his knee. He bosomed the envelope with the money, pushed his spasmodically shivering hand against Joonas’s chin, that immediately started to bleed and Joonas run out of the auditorium.
 

Joonas was sitting in the back corner of the eating hall and a liter sized bowl filled with ice cubes was on the table. The other, a two liter sized bowl was almost half-filled with dark red blood and slobber. He was spiting blood there almost every minute. The left side of his chin was hurting as hell. An almost middle-aged school nurse was sitting in front of him, dig into harms and shaked her head.

„The harms of your teeth are much worse than I thought. Your sternmost tooth has broken into five pieces and is hanging on it’s tooth nerve. The next tooth is half-potruded from the tooth pulp and is moving.“

He noded as he couldn’t talk because of the pain. Joonas spit blood into the bigger bowl.

„Please hold ice on the harm and don’t move your head. If you touch the tooth nerve, you can have 12 on the 10-ball pain scale! I’ll go and bring the syringe and painkiller.“

„Maybe morphine would be better.“ anwsered Joonas and tried to smile in spite of the paralyzing pain.

„Place an ice cube into your mouth.“ said Karin with serious voice.

Joonas did what he got told. He placed the ice cube on the harm. That bringed out the pain more powerfully. Joonas screamed because of the pain and fainted. Karin leaned his head above the blood bowl and placed a stick behind his teeth so that his mouth would stay opened. That was the only way that the boy wouldn’t choke into his blood.

„Milvi, please come here and hold his head above the bowl. I’ll run into my office.“

Karin raised up and and run into the school nurse office on the third floor when Milvi sat in front of him. She was looking for a morphine pills from the painkillers. Morphine is for painkilling in case the other regular painkillers lose their effects. She found the pills and run back into the eating hall. Karin saw that the boy had came to yourself and was looking around while being confused. She sat on the chair instead of Milvi. She asked the school cook to bring a glass of lukewarm water and a tea spoon. The she put a pill into his mouth and said:

„That’s morphine, as you asked.“

Joonas swallowed the pill and drank on it the water that Karin gave him.

„Joonas, I’ll carry you off into the hospital. This harm needs a surgery.“

„I don’t want to. Maybe we can stop the bleeding some other way.“

„No, you can get some help in the hospital.“ said Karin with concerned seriousness.

Karin took the roll of housekeep towelette that the cook gave her and helped Joonas to raise up. She helped Joonas to walk through the school’s foyer. He opened his mouth for breathing and started to bleed in front of the other students. Many of them couldn’t stand the view and disgustedly turned their heads away. Karin took a long piece of the towelette, folded it up and put it on his mouth, helped him to walk out of the schoolhouse and drived to the Tartu University Hospital. The drive lasted a bit more than half hour because of the maze of traffic lights. By this time Joonas changed the towelletes about eight times because the bleeding hadn’t still stopped. In the hospital they received him, leaded him to the casualty ward. A man about sixty years, a dentist (surgeon), stepped in front of him. His wise look was thoughtful. Joonas sat on the dentist's chair, opened his mouth so that the dentist could look over the harms. The tooth was shreded to four which had caused snaged tooth pulp. The doctor injected a painkiller into the patient’s tooth pulp, took a surgical nippers with thin end and pulled out the moving tooth and the pieces of the other tooth with special carefulness. After that he injected a bloodcurdling liquid that had to stop the bleeding. He said after finishing his job:

„So far our work is done.“

He sat behind his desk, took a block of recipe- and bill papers from the drawer, wrote a bill and recipe. When he saw Joonas’s chin convulsive because of pain and bleeding, he took the phone and chose the number while pushing on the soft buttons. If he got contacted, he said:

„Do you have a free bed place in intensive care? Very good. Please register one for Joonas Väli.“

After he finished the call, he stepped in front of the patient and said:

„Because of the complications I have to send you to the intensive care. Today you are going to a surgery.“

Joonas bended the head desperately. He was afraid of being in the hospital.

Two hours later. The time was quarter past two. Joonas was lying on a gurney in the patients’s waiting room next to the operations room. He was wearing a pyjamas pinafore that was opened from the back side. An almost forty years old female nurse stepped in front of him. She looked at Joonas and said:

„The operations room is is ready. We have to remove the piece of your tooth surgically.“

„Isn’t there any other way to remove it?“ Joonas asked concernedly.

„That would be more difficult. We have to remove the tooth piece with incisions.“

„Well, do as you want!“

The nurse pushed the gurney into the operations room. They helped him to lie on the operating table. The doctor and nurse came closer. They were wearing a green sanitary wimples, respirators and hygienic pinafores.

The nurse put an anesthesia mask on to the patient’s face and said:

„Be calm and count until ten, you will fall asleep and feel no pain.“

Joonas was glancing at something unknown and counted slowly - one, two, three, four, five. Six, seven, eight... His look was turning hazy, head turned heavy and he drop asleep - heavy sleep of narcosis.

When the anesthesia took effect, the nurse removed the anesthesia mask and placed an end of a breathing apparatus into his nostrils. The surgeon sat next to the patient’s head, on chair that had set higher, the nurse sat on the other side.

„Mouth prop!“ asked the surgery doctor.

He got mouth prop, placed in the patient’s mouth and made the gap wider to get closer to teeth.

„Tongue retractor!“ the nurse gave him an instrument that reminded a jew’s harp.

„Suck out the blood with suction!“ When mouth had cleaned from blood with suction, he asked a scalpel with thin end. Then he made two incisions by millimetres very slowly and carefully. He dried the new blood with suction, the nurse gave a nippers thin as a needle. The surgeon accessed to the harm and removed slowly the tooth piece which broken edge was sharp, and put it into a little bowl.

„Clean!“ ordered surgeon.

The nurse dried the mouth from blood. Then she gave the doctor a mediacl needle and floss and sew the harm together even more slowly. He injected a bloodcurdling medicine. When he made sure that the bleeding had stopped he gave an order to awake the patient. The other nurse came closer with a wheelchair. With two minutes they helped him to sit. His head was spinning and a spectral fog was all around him. At the moment he barfed, the surgeon put a low metal bowl in front of his face and Joonas vomited twice. Noone was really surprised about this retching because it was a normal after-surgery reaction that befalled about six people from ten. The put a sweet antiemetic pill into Joonas’s mouth. After that, they carted the patient into an after-surgery department by the long coridor. In the visitor’s department he saw Diana raising up and laping up concernedly. Right away it returned to mind the girl’s inequitable and dishonourable behavior and his usual stress came back and it gave him such a tension headache that he fell asleep in the wheelchair. When they arrived at the hospital room the put him into bed under blanket with two male helpers.

Two days later. The time was 52 past 1.

Knock on the hospital room’s door. A nurse about twenty years old, entered the room. Joonas could read the name tag on her chest, that said her name was Johanna. Johanna smiled kindly, opened the patient’s medication card and said:

„Your tooth pulp hasn’t bleed for two days already. That’s a good sign. But I want to see how the harms have been healed, so please open your mouth.“

Joonas opened his mouth and Johanna diged into it with tiny mirror, she looked at every corner of his tooth pulp. Her smile meant good.

And she said:

„The tooth pulp harms look good, so I came to announce you that you can go to the home healing.“

Joonas was send to the patient’s coatroom where were all of the patient’s private clothes and things. While dressing himselef, he noticed that his clothes were washed very clean. He took his wallet and checked that he still had all of his money, ID-, bankcards and etc. He exited the hospital and breathed easier. The third day he was at home all day long. He didn’t worry because his mother had sent an aegrotat to his school. His mother wanted him to chose – will he register a complaint against violence of Siim in the police precinct or not. It would had helped his mother to pay all the cure costs. But he was afraid of Siim’s reaction if he would knew about the complaint. But at the same time he dread to meet Diana by accident. The next day, friday, he had to go to the school anyway.

A knock on the door woke Joonas from the thoughts.

„Yes!“ he said.

The door opened. His mother Siiri looked into the room behind the door. Siiri was 42 years thin woman. Despite the fact that she was almost middle aged, she still looked good. She had half-long chestnut brown hair.

„Joonas, you have a visitor. Come downstairs.“

„Who is it?“ asked Joonas and looked in the eye.

„Diana, your schoolmate.“

„I don’t want to see her. Please, send her away!“

„Joonas, don’t be impolite.“ she reproved didactically, but she couldn’t hide that she was caressing.

„Seriously, I do not want to see her.“ he repeated and remained firm.

He looked at his desk. He opened it’s left drawer, took a math textbook and opened it from page 105, he also took a chequered blotter. With that action, he showed to his mother, that they were not going to argue about it anymore. Siiri sighed, shaked her head and said:

„Okay, I’ll make up an excuse. But the dinner is ready after an hour!“

„Okay, thanks mom!“

His mother leaved and closed the door, but Joonas couldn’t concentrate on studying, although he had a lots of material to study. The window of his room was above the front door of the house and was opened to freshen the air, that’s why Joonas heard the conversation between his mother and Diana:

„I’m sorry, my son doesn’t feel himself well enough to speak to you.“

„I’m sorry I gave you trouble. But is he coming to the school tomorrow?“

„It’s okay. I’m not sure. We will see it in the morning.“

„Please hand on my letter to him.“ said Diana and gave her a paper sheet folded to four.

„I will hand on it. Good night!“

„Bye!“

The front door closed.

Siiri placed the letter on a low shelf next to the living room’s door. She went to the kitchen being in hurry because she afraid that the oven-baked salmon with lemon and Mediterranean spices may start to burn. She grabed the potholders and opened the trap-door of the oven. A puff of hot steam and a bit burned smell spreaded out. The oven-baked salmon was dark brown on the top. That was close call. She cut a little piece, tasted it and found that there was no burned taste. She took out the salmon and put it on the stove, shut down the oven, cut the salmon into six and placed it in the white oval fictile plate. Next to the salmon Siiri put vegetables stewed in a little liquid and placed it all in the middle of the table. The daughter had covered the table.

While all the bustle stepped into the house a fourty years old man with half long a bit curly hair and burly body shape. He placed a suitcase on the living room’s table and hanged a dark blue leather coat on the coat-hook, stepped into the kitchen and greeted. He looked at the salmon first, then at his wife and said grumpyly:

„That’s why I smelled the burn smell already in the vestibule.“

„There’s nothing wrong with the salmon. It’s baked well in the inside.“ anwsered Siiri.

She stepped at her husband, gave him a little kiss and went to the kitchen sink, washed her hands, dried them and said:

„Now we are gonna gather together to eat. I call the children.“

Twelve years old Jaanika was sitting in the living room with her laptop. MSN and the website Rate.ee were opened. She was writing with someone in the MSN.

„Please go and call your brother downstairs and come to eat.“

„Can I do it later? Mommy, I have a chat going on right now.“ scrounged Jaanika, trying to get more time.

„No, now!“ mom didn’t gave ground.

Jaanika sighed, logged out of the MSN, standed up and while muttering to herself she went to the second floor to call her creep brother to eat. At the same time, the husband and wife sat at the table, both sitting at either end of the table. Kalmer poured a fresh coffee into a big porcelain cup, poured a bit of coffee cream, added two sugar cubes and opened the suitcase while mixing the coffee. He took out some documents and while drinking the hot coffee he readed a paper that was a worksheet of an incoming contract. He wrote something engrossedly and took a new sip.

„Could you deal with the work things later, please? The kids are coming to eat any moment.“ said Siiri and next to the salmon she placed a glass pitcher with fresh unpasteurized milk from her mother.

With displeased mutter to himself, he placed the documents back to the suitcase, closed it, standed up and beared it off to his home cabinet. Kalmer came back to the kitchen at the same time as the children.

„Jaanika, please wash your hands before you sit at the table.“ said Kalmer to his daughter.

„But I washed.“

„Wash your hands!“ the father gave an order with a voice that couldn’t stand any arguing.

Jaanika washed hands while muttering. She dried hands into her clothes and sat at the table and started ordering right away:

„I want the tail piece.“

As she got what wanted, she took also the vegetables and squeezed a ketchup on the salmon. While the food plate was given from hand to hand, asked Siiri from her daughter interestedly:

„Jaanika, have you studied?“

„There are a bit of the tasks left. I’ll finish before I go to sleep.“

„Joonas, have your teeth healed?“ asked Kalmer from his son.

„They are still hurting a bit, but I can eat someway.“

„It was a big harm. Tell me how it happened.“

„You know about it?“ asked Joonas without anwsering to his father’s question.

„They connected with your mom from the hospital. Now, please tell me how it happened.“

„It happened by violence.“ Joonas anwsered shortly.

„Did you started a fight?“

„No, I was the victim.

„What have you decided? Are you going the write a petition to the police against Siim?“ father didn’t stop asking and his look turned more serious.

Joonas looked down being confused. He stopped cutting peaces of the salmon and making a puree from the vegetables and fall silent. He twirled the fork in his food but couldn’t anwser because of the hesitations in him.

„I don’t hear your anwser, my son.“ asked Kalmer rigidly.

„Don’t be so strict. He is confused anyway.“ said Siiri to support her son.

„If he is confused, he have to be able to fight with it.“ said Kalmer to his wife.

Then he said again to his son:

„Joonas, anwser me.“

„I couldn’t make the decision yet.“ anwsered Joonas flinchingly.

„Why, do you afraid Siim?“

„Yes, he’s a dangerous person.“

„I haven’t teached you to be afraid, but to stand up for yourself!“

„But I don’t know if I write a petition against Siim in the police.“

„That means I have to do it for yourself!“

„Honey, don’t impose on!“ said Siiri being concerned.

„Damn, you don’t barge in!“ the father bawled out and biffed on the table so that the table was shaking, knives and forks clanged and glasses falled down. Then he continued:

„You have cosseted him and ruined him with your pampering! I wonder you don’t suckle him! But it’s okay. I still have time to guide him to the right way, my way!“

„Joonas will choose his way by himself! We are not gonna force him.“

„Be silent, my wife! Until I am the main one who earns a living for us, I chose what is good for my son!“

„Shut up, both of you! I have made a decision, that have to calm down you both.“ said Joonas.

„Do you offer a compromise?“ asked Kalmer.

„Yes, If Siim doesn’t endanger my life by one month, I will not sue him.“

„No, no.“ the father was shaking his head. He frowned again, stared at Joonas as he was the worst criminal and said: „I don’t like it.“

„You don’t have to like it. I know what is the best for me by myself and I decide, who will I want to follow!“ continued Joonas while he blew a gasket. True, it was the first time when Joonas defy authority – his father. He standed up from the table.

„Where are you going?“

„Dad, I will go to my room. I’m not hungry anymore.“

„Sit back at the table and finnish the dinner!“

„I’ll eat later, when you both have calmed down. Father, I will not relinquish my decision. You will accept it or...“ he gave an opinion nervously.

„I don’t want to eat anymore too. Thanks a lot for ruining the dinner.“ said Jaanika. She standed up and went to her room after her brother.

Chapter 2.

Siim was standing with back against the bus stop booth glass and smoking Marlboro cigarettes. It was not aloud to smoke indoors in many schools. Everyone who was cotton up by teachers, headteacher or headmaster, got usually punished by decree. But sometimes the police had to intervene.

Siim was listening to his two friends’s bad jokes and and their bursts of laughter without special participation. His eyes wandered somewhere farther an unknown paths that he didn’t know even himself. Perhaps he saw a girl who he found quite beddable, had face like a model and not very smart. Mart and Tõivo were sitting as buddies patronizing so that their feet breadth far and took much room. They were sitting on a wooden bench and threw cigarette butts into mud puddle, that had left after the snow had melt, by flicking fingers. Siim's three inches length hair was combed to the two sides in American style. As young blood he dressed himself always following the new fashion trends. He was a man who was never easily distinguishable from the others because he melt into the crowd with his look and a musical selection of mostly revolved around techno and trance. He was a popular guy in school and outside it, he had countless female admirers. But everyone knew that he was the man who replaced women as socks, who always used the occasion to flirt with everybody, and which always ended in bed and had sexual relations. He was from a rich family, where he could do anything and he was used to get everything he wanted from early childhood.

Siim had suddenly blighting glance. He saw a couple approaching that meant the accident for them in worse case. He cramped his hand.

„Well, did that beat your ego?“ asked Tõivo as joking.

„Shut up, you mutt!“ shouted Siim nervously.

It had to be all about Siim, then he felt himself almighty and unbeatable, even further than God. His nostrils flickered expanding rage believing that Joonas was laughing at him in spite of threats. He was jealous that Diana has been in his place at that nerd emo bastard. Began to rage in the heart, he felt like he wanted to vomit when he saw how Joonas’s lips kissed Diana. His arrogance was unlimited, which let to think that his will had to meet all, or otherwise the accident could happen to those who did not fulfill his will.

There was an idea in his head of ​​how to break their relationship no matter how, except murder.

In a moment he had weakness in anger when he was speaking to himself, shaking his head and swear the revenge to Joonas. He had to continue waiting a good opportunity to even bloody his fists.

When Joonas arrived the schoolhouse, he found the house to be quiet. Going to take a closer look, said the male headteacher that schoolday was shorter this day. Diana also loved these news, she had a broad smile on her lips and embraced the boy. Those five hours were required to belong only for them and no one was allowed to violate, not even jealous Siim, who was always trying Diana to start to like him, thus trying to conquer Diana to himself. Joonas and Diana were walking hand in hand by the empty corridors. Rollicking smile was strange, a little intimidating. Was she planning something? They had come behind the teachers’s room door, Diana pulled the doorknob.

,, Let's go in. I have an idea." said Diana, and lapped up boy’s questioning look.

,, I do not know. After all, we could get in trouble."
,, Joonas, don’t be such a pussy. A little adventure would be not bad, after all." explained Diana. Her hand arose on Joonas’s untrained, slim chest and fondled it alluringly. She pulled the doorknob again, trying to open the door. As the door was opened, she casted a glance at her boyfriend. She stepped into the room first, pulled him behind her, while holding his hand and let the the door to close. The staff’s room was roomy and comfortably furnished. The coffee table was beside the window. Upholstered, comfort corner sofa and two sofa tables. Spacious closet shelves were by three walls, where were mainly the teaching material for the next half of the academic year. Second class’s shelves were diaries in different colors, these diaries were cataloged alphabetically from the first grade. Beside the corner sofa there was computer desk, where the teachers were usually searching for extra materials for the lessons. Beside the computer ther was Conan color printer which contained a pack of A4 paper sheets. Two meters high coat rack with ten tenterhooks was standing next to the door. A red, cotton scarf was hanging on the coat rack. Diana took the scarf, step behind Joonas and blind his eyes with it.

„What are you doing?!“ said Joonas who was scared and tried to take off the scarf.

Diana took the boy’s hands, pulled them gently down and keep him in her embrace, while still holding his hands. She kissed his neck on the right side with frisky tenderness, bite his ear gently and whispered:

„Don’t struggle! Trust me. You would like that.“

Adrenaline that slowly started to congregate in his body, made him to relax. Otherwise he couldn’t had experience a passionate bliss that he had never felt before.

Diana guided Joonas to the corner sofa and pushed him on it. She crawled above the boy, while swinging her body, kissed him on his neck few times, pulled off his black shirt, hiked up his T-shirt until his chest and as sucking she kissed his stomach, navel and nipples. Joonas struggled because he felt a little tickle, but soon he had calm and stayed lying as he felt pleasure. But not for long.

When Diana pulled off his T-shirt, he leaped up as he would had got electric shock. Joonas brushed her aside, took the scarf off and while being a little scared, he asked:

„What are you planning?“

„Don’t be a pussy. I want you.“

„You want to have sex with me?“

„Yes, you are driving me crazy. I desire you! Damn, I want to fuck you so bad!“

„But I haven't...“ said Joonas but didn’t finish his sentence, because he was afraid that Diana was gonna laugh him down.

„You haven’t what?“

„I haven't had sex for a long time.“

„Oh, that’s the problem! I’ll turn you a more confident man! Do you want it?“

„I’m not sure.“

„They say that modesty is chastity, you have enough of it but right now it’s in a wrong place.“

„If you want to have sex with me, then I can try again.“

„Now that’s a man’s attitude! Don’t worry, I’ll be careful with you.“

„But I can’t...“ Joonas tried to say but Diana made him fall silent with french kiss.

„Shut up already!“ said Diana as losing patience.

Before she was starting to deal with Joonas, she standed up, she run her eye over the teachers’s room. On a desk beside the door was standing an oudated stereo system. She couldn’t find anything else from it’s CD box, than a CD with romantic flute music. If there would had been something better, she would had chose some other record. She was silently cussing the old fogy’s musical choice while opening all drawers of the desk. In the last drawer there was a blank CD without any title. She was getting her hopes up while she put the record into stereo stystem’s CD box and pressed the play button. A romantic, slow rock music. Still better than the flute music crap. She found the music to have a good rhythm which was suiting perfectly with her idea that she started to make into action immediately. She stepped on the sofa table, she started dancing slowly while fondling her body eroticly, trying to arouse desire in her and Joonas. After stepping off the sofa table, she started to swing slowly her body like a cobra. Diana was waving her hair round and round, fondling boy’s legs with them, so that her hair amounted even to his groin. Joonas felt how trillions of strange frissons run all over his body. Diana hiked up her shirt until breasts and opened the button of her dark brown mini skirt which fell down and revealed her sheer strings. She pushed Joonas on his back

on the sofa, straddled on his groin and swinged her lower body back-and-forth. She had slowly pulled off Joonas’s jeans and boxers, climbed above his body and enjoyed how the boy pulled off her strings. Diana had made clear that his penis was hard enough, she furled a condom on and felt how he carefully entered into her body. Was it a dream or reality, how passion was crazing their minds. A limit of perfect passion and carnal delight had been crossed awhile back and seemed to grow powerfully. Every push made Diana to groan from enjoy, every gentle bite on neck showed pleasure. Unlimited passion passion was heating their bodies as they were burning in the flames of hell. The last pushes in made Joonas felt like his genitals explode while Diana screamed from orgasm.

The two young people were lying bare naked in each other’s embrace on the corner sofa. Joonas had fasten the eyes upon the ceiling which was trowelled white. He was gasping in and out as he had worked away for hours.

„You were great for a first time after a long time.“ praised Diana and smiled like a sculpture of Virgin Mary.

„You reminded me.“ Joonas couldn’t say anything else.

Being silent, they listened to the music that was repeating for a second time already. They were breathing in same rhythm. Diana’s pert breasts were lying on the boy’s chest that was shining in sweat and warmness was still burning under their skin. To have sex two times was much for Joonas, it had been exhausting and all their energy was used, but the experiences of enjoy were unforgettable.

It was true that destiny was strange sometimes. What saw in him one of the most popular girls in school? Did he deserved the experience he got from her? Oh damn, why? Those questions didn’t leave him alone anymore, but he didn’t dare to ask.

Something had made Diana to act different. He used to get only contempt, blackguards and persecution from her. His alternative look was one cause of persecution. Now he was lying naked next to the girl who had just gave her pleasure. Yes, destiny was strange.

„Diana, am I a boyfriend for you?“

„Yes, of course. Strange that you understand it now.“

„But why? What did you saw in me?“

„You are not afraid to be who you are. They have been picked on you and bullied you, but you are still yourself.“

Suddenly they heared steps of high heels behind the door. Joonas was beging estonian ancient god Toora (estonian version of Thor), that no one wouldn’t enter the room. But seemed that the god’s will was different. Diana and Joonas saw how the doorknob was pulled down and the door of the teachers’s opened.

Chapter 1.

Everyone hated and loved the schoolbell that saved from 45 minutes length brainwork and studying, but it also was giving a signal of beginning of torturing lesson. At the moment, the schoolbell was giving a sign of end of math lesson. Suddenly everybody was starting to hurry. Blotters and textbooks were closed loudly and were throw carelessly into school desk drawers and drawers wooden tip-up flap closing loud voices lasted few moments the most just as long as someone could breathe in and out.

„There will be a very important math test tomorrow, don’t forget! It will bear on tasks we were working on today. Then I can rate your third a-quarter.“ Shouted almost 37-years old a average tall and thin female teacher to 10th grade students.

Pupils were reacting with displeased lurry to these bad news. Six classdoors of opened and the long coridor was filled with a crowd of learners who all had hurry as they would miss the train.

Joonas was the last one who were in mood of the recess. Slowly but thoughtfully he put the blotter as bookmark to schoolbook’s 70th page, closed the textbook and placed into schooldesk’s drawer. The clock above the classdoor was showing eleven o’clock. Joonas was the most modest student in the class. To strangers and even friends, he seemed like came from another world, eery and morose. His gothic metal style that reminded kind of emo and made him easily distinguishable from the others and was catching attention. His hair, that he weared ponytailed in school, was dyed black and extend over half of his back. His nails were always dyed with black nail enamel that he was sharing with his younger sister. Day-by-day he was wearing black clothes and half high military boots.

Joonas wanted just start the recess but teacher stopped him.

„Joonas, wait a bit“

„Yes?“ asked Joonas and looked at Katariina a little understandingly.

Katariina was average tall with chestnut brown hair and had bigger breasts with bra size B. Her blue eyes had always charmed the boy.

„I’m worried about you weak level in math. But you are a diligent student. I thought to give you easier tasks for tomorrow’s big test.“

„Why do you prefer me over the others? I don’t need no vantages.“

„If you get the tasks same level as the others, then I afraid you can fail!“

„Don’t worry.“ Joonas had nothing else to say. His voice was sounding emotive cause he was touched by the fact that somebody could care about him.

As unnoticed, the teacher was steping closer to boy and drop a hand on his hip as a dance partner in the beginning of a dance. Joonas got shock, he sepped back a bit. He was astonished. Before he stepped out of the classroom, he said:

„Please don’t do that anymore! I’m beging you!“

„Joonas, forgive me, I...“ said Katariina to the 16-years old boy. But she couldn’t finish her sentence, because suddenly she was alone in the classroom. She finished quietly: „...didn’t want to get so close to you so unexpectedly.“

Why? Asked Joonas by himself. What was causing this? Love? It couldn’t be. Confusing toughts didn’t leave him alone anymore.

The coridor was full of life. The best seats were taken by many groups. They always had flavors of the month that they were discussing and laughing loudly at the same time. They were also backbiting people they didn’t like willing or unwilling. Who knows, maybe they were badmouthing the others just because they were bored?

A little group of girls took the window sills where they could see the school’s stadium. Three of these girls were looking boys practicing physical education. While pointing their fingers to some boys they were giving nudges to each other with elbows, giggled and said:

„Look, how handsome guys! Like in heaven!“

„You know what? One of them, Siim, kissed me and said that I’m the prettiest in the entire school!“

„No way, I was supposed to be!“ said Kristi and pout, while pretending that she took offense.

„None of them isn’t congenial enough for me!“ said Diana who was the smartest one of all four girls.

„Are you stupid, aren’t you? Who do you like then?“ asked Kristi from Diana and raised her left eyebrow.

„Joonas.“ said Diana and gave ambiguous smile.

„Not possible! Do you mean this emo-fag?“

Diana didn’t answer to insult like this. She raised up because she had seen her morose and eery looking sight for sore eyes. Her girlfriends were astonished that she sat beside the boy. If their eyes met, Diana cut loose and gave sweet smile. She enjoyed how Joonas gazed her from head to foot. Diana had thin, a little bit athletic body shape. Tight, black shirt showed moderate sized, round shaped breasts that belly out against the fabric. Blonde, groomed hair were not tighten up and extend over her shoulders. Shiny teeth looked like row of pearls. The girl who was perfect girl in many boys eyes, was gazing boy who was a bit shy. She used to call him with names like wonk and geek, but soon she realized that this distinguished looking young man had candid heart. They’re personalitys were different like day and night. Diana had temperament but cunningly flirtic character. She was one of the popular youths in school. With charming smile she drop her hand on Joonas’s knee and fondled it like a cat.

„Joonas, what are you doing after school?“ asked Diana.

Joonas felt himself uncomfortable with Diana’s glad eyes.

„I have no big plans. I help my mother to babysit my little sister.“

„Lets meet in the Artur’s Pub after the school. Lets have a cool time.“

„Why are you interested in me? You used to treat me badly.“ Joonas dared to ask a queston he had in his mind for awhile.

„I used to have blinders on, now I see who you really are.“ said Diana as apologizing.

She drop her hand on boy’s thigh while her little finger touched his jeans’s zip and said:

„Will you forgive me?“

Joonas looked at girl for a moment. For a second, his leg moved shivering. He anwsered finally: „What else I can do!“

The schoolbell was ringing and gived a sign that lesson had begun. Diana gave him a french kiss raised up and moved to physics class, pendulating her butt a bit. The schoolbell was ringing for a second time. Joonas stand up and moved to the history class. In the rest of the bustle he didn’t notice, that Siim and two friends were behind his back, put hand on Joonas’s shoulder and pressed him against the wide message wall. He barely got over his fright, he looked his classmate’s eyes full of arrogance. He catched at Siim’s shirt neckpiece to protsect himself somehow. Siim hit it aside and said:

„What is going on between you and Diana? Are you trying to seduce her?“

„That’s my own bissness, who I’m friend with. Besides, Diana was the one who flirted with me.“ said Joonas with a little bit vibrant voice.

Siim and his friends started laughing at him with loud voice but it stopped like someone had cut it with knife.

„You are funny, emo-fag! Diana and flirting with you, hahaa, she doesn’t give no heed of cockroaches as you, who I can easily squash under my feet!“

„Give him a beat! That asshole is nobody!“ agitated Tõivo and sneered happily.

„Let me, I’m gonna beat him by myself! Oh, how I enjoy beating the emo-fags!“

„Shut up, both of you!“ Siim bawled out. Then he said to his classmate:

„You, emo-fag, keep away from Diana! Otherwise I will make you regret that you were ever born!“

With minutes, each boys went to different classes, Siim and Joonas to history class. As they opened the door, the teacher’s, Mrs. Männik’s penetrating eye made them stop next to the sink. Mrs. Männik was seventy two years old, she had longest work experience in the school. She had been working there from the 1970-s. She had always high expectations but she was fascinatingly witty. The whole governing board of the school had respect for her.

„Why are you late?“ the teacher asked.

„Only three minutes! So what?“ Siim anwsered with arrogance.

„Siim, your systematic unpunctuality has crossed the limits. I have to write a disparaging remark about you.“

„Yeah, whatever, you old fogy.“

„Your insults doesn’t hurt my feelings.“ Said Mrs. Männik who was still calm but there was a bit displeasure in her voice.

„Joonas, I am suprised that you are late. What causes your latening to the lesson?“

„I had a little squirts.“ Joonas tried to explain. But Mrs. Männik knew Joonas well enough to know, that he was lying. She had so much frankness that the other teachers respcted her.

„Both of you will be making a test for a punishment. You can go and sit now.“

The boys had barely sit down when teacher took two white A4 sheets from her desk drawer, gave the sheets for Joonas and Siim, stopped in front of the class and said:

„Your test will bear on estonians general strike in 1905, it’s causes and effects.“

Joonas smiled by himself because history was easier for him. It was his favorite subject in school and free time. His knowlegdes in history were so widespread that Mrs. Männik had send him to the statewide olympiad. Thats why this test didn’t made him to rack his brains much. He always had a take on history with special attention and his logical disquisition could had impress many students. Mrs. Männik turned herself toward the blackboard, took a little piece of chalk and wrote on the board: „The First World War“.

The she said to the pupils: „Open the books page 175 and read the most important facts that are written by clauses. In the second half of the lesson we are going to watch a training video about the causes of the First World War“.

The schoolbell was ringing to give a sign of the launch break. Long crouds of learners were gathering at eating hall. Each student took a red plastic tray. Fat launch lady put on a plate a bigger amount of vegetable salad, boiled potatoe and a fat oval and crusty steak on for them and then did scoop a half liquid sauce on it. Twenty minutes was enough time for first students to finish eating. Joonas also got his food. He stopped for a moment to find a free table. Then he found a table beside the window. He sat down and ate a bit when Siim with Mart and Tõivo sat beside him.

„How does the food tastes?“ Siim asked with mean tone.

„Like homely food.“ Joonas anwsered hesitatingly.

„I’ll make it more tasty.“ said Siim and took the half filled saltshaker that had been standing in the middle of table, sprinkled a little bit salt on Joonas’s food. Suddenly he knuckled off the gum cover of saltshaker with thumb and poured all the salt in saltshaker on to Joonas’s food, took the fork, mixed it and said:

„Bon appetit.“

When Siim and his friends left the eating hall, Joonas left too, because he had lost his appetite. He went outside the school, to the fast food kiosk at Riga street next to the railway bridge. He took the wallet from his pocket and stepped next to the kiosk’s trap door.

„What can I offer you, young man?“ asked busty middled-aged woman kindly.

„A double burger with a little salad, please.“

Joonas was glancing at salesgirl taking a bun from warm counter, salad and two butter fried steaks from another drawers and put between bun, then squeezed on it light mustard and ketchup. The double burger cost 25 EEKs. He took 50 EEK banknote from his wallet, gave to the salesgirl, smiled and said:

„You can keep it all.“

„You are kind, handsome young man. Next time you’ll get it for free!“

Joonas took his double burger, sat on a seat next to the kiosk and started eating.. He ate barely half of the burger, when he heard Diana:

„Hey, Joonas!“

Just because of her I have troubles with Siim, was Joonas thinking while wrapping half of the burger that had left. He put it in his bag, stand up and wanted to leave, but Diana took his hand and pulled Joonas back to sit.

„I have been looking for you everywhere.“ said Diana.

„I have troubles just because of you.“

„I don’t like Siim. He is too selfish and arrogant, I can’t get along with him.“

„That’s what you wanted to say to me?“

„No. Can I be your girlfriend? I have a fancy for you.“

„Are you sure?“ asked Joonas hesitatingly.

„That anwser should be enough.“ said Diana.

She put her hand on his nape and kissed him in french style, playing with her tongue eroticly.

Introduction to works of fiction.

„Accidental“ is tragic romance about two young lovers. They didn’t know that they’re paths converge when Karoliine change her school before convertion of the class, she meets Joonas. On the other hand appears Siim between their lives, who is trying to do everything to make their life difficult. Does Siim manages to make his plan into action? Certain stages of love, where young people have to survive no matter how serious fatal blows. And there is always someone who has a grudge against the two young people, even the revenge. But the two are able to survive the difficulties and outpace death, which always creeps them after the first meeting, ready to take them in to death’s embrace at any moment? Can Joonas and Karoliine could easily be themself?